Thoughts

In the things I think about I have taken my thoughts and feelings about things and wrote them down. I am not saying that others need to do or think how I do it is just a way to get to know me and my heart. I have added a blog so I will slowly be archiving this page and just blogging but every once in a while I will bring back a thought and put it on the site just as some inspiration. 

I think a lot about different things, some are inspiring and some are silly and some are about Life in general. Today I am thinking about how sometimes we see life as always going against us but we never really stop and ask if it is our life or something else. We view things differently from everyone around us. When we are in the middle of something it could seem hopeless but to someone else there could be a solution that we do not see. Our perspective can be off a little when we are in the middle and can not see clearly. There are different things we can do to change that, 1 step back and ask God to open your eyes, 2 ask a friend to pray and maybe give their point of view and 3 turn around and walk away for a while and then go back sometimes it will be sitting in plain sight but, because of stress and frustration you did not see it. But most importantly always seek God in any thing  because His point of view is flawless. I have found that God likes us to ask Him for help He likes us to seek Him and He likes it when we rely on Him for the answers to our questions. Ask God let Him guide you let Him hold your hand and help you through because as our Father that is what He loves to do.

September 16, 2006

What is important in life? Do we really know what to place the title of important on? I believe we go through life blindly with out really knowing where we are going until we hit a wall then we stop to check out our surroundings. I have to ask my self what was so important that it gave me a headache because I was not paying attention. We then get so caught up in life that maybe the "real" important things get shoved on the back burner, for example Family, Kids sports, reading to your kids, sitting down at the dinner table to see how everyone is, most importantly God. I got an email today about the time we have for God. I have to say I have been there and I have seen others there too. Above all else God should be the most important in all of our lives then maybe we won't have as many headaches.

I often dream of a place that will be safe for the ones I love. A place with walls to the north to the south to the east to the west with maybe a color I like the best. A place with warmth and love and happiness and peace from above. A place for laughter and a few tears, A place to be safe from fears. Where is this place I do not know, But God will be there to show me a place of my own a place to call home.

9-19-06

I cried some tears today for a man that passed away a man that changed so many lives. He died to young and it was so tragic . I cried some tears today for a young family they lost their dad and husband. I cried some tears today for someone people call a warrior. He loved life, loved animals and he loved his kids and wife. I cried some tears today for some one that needed to live, love and go on. I cried some tears today for a little girl so young but strong and she will hold on to the memories she has. I cried some tears today for a little boy that at only 2 will have to be told all about the wonderful man he will never know. I cried some tears today for a wife she lost the love of her life. She will live on and have to be strong when she may want to be weak. I cried some tears to day for a father who lost a son, a friend and a confidant. I cried some tears today for a zoo that will not be the same with out you. For all of the people that will miss you I cried some tears for the ones that love you most. I do not know you and I never will but you have made a difference in not only my life but my kid's life too and we will miss you. Good bye Steve Irwin Crocodile hunter always full of life and passion for the animals you loved so much, I know you will live on in spirit and your family will carry on your legacy.

9-21-06

Yesterday in whats new I wrote about the many hats I wear. I wrote about hero's too. Today I am writing about hero's again but from a different aspect of things. Who is a true hero? It is different to everyone but to me a true hero is someone that thinks of others before themselves, they are willing to help, smile when no one else is. Hero's come in different shape and sizes and can be as different as night and day. Can we ask ourselves are we a hero to someone? do we live our lives to help others or do we live for ourselves? In my book there are many hero's. Teachers I mean true teachers ones that care, Faithful men and women of God, a special friend, my son. Not all people have a hero but maybe someone in their life went the extra mile and gave a cheerful smile. I may not be a hero but I strive to be the best mom, wife, person I can and I know I am not always successful but I try. I would love to see my children grow up and say my mom is my hero but, if they don't and they turn out to be great people then I know I did a good job. I love to see people smile and I love to teach the kids I work with sign language and to see them be good at it not perfect but for them seeing them do it is perfect to me. I got called teacher yesterday and that made my day.

9-24-06

Isn't amazing that when we sin and fall short of the expectations that we have that God is always faithful to forgive and have mercy. Yet we or at least I find myself getting frustrated and yelling at my own kids for silly things. Imagine if God yelled at us how would we feel? I am sure we would feel lower than dirt. So I have asked myself how do my kids feel? They can't feel good about it so why do I do it? I suppose it is human nature. If God can forgive I think we should too. If God can speak in a still small voice maybe we should. He is our heavenly Parent we are just on this earth to guide His smaller Children, ultimately He is their Father more than we are. What right do we have to yell? So I am declaring Peace, I am going to try with Gods help to stop yelling start talking and not get so angry with them. Kids do not deserve the punishment of yelling and screaming God does not do that to us. As Godly people we need to try to act more out of love than anger and in the end watching us change may change them too and that is what will mold them into good people. At least that's my opinion.

11-01-06

Many times I have dreamed of a perfect life I know that life is not perfect but in my dreams it is. A fairytale marriage perfectly behaved and normal kids and a big beautiful home that was always clean and a nice figure. what I have is a not so fairytaleish marriage far from perfect and normal kids a house I have to move out of to who knows where and figure don't go there. I am frustrated and I lose it sometimes I yell a lot (like that does any good) and I get yelled at. I am not perfect and neither is my family. Would I trade them Sometimes I would like to but no I would not. I know I will never have the perfect life I just wish life would send some good my way.